What's So Big About Male Bonding?

There's a part of me that still feels like I don't belong at Barry University. Especially when I'm around my friends. Strange huh? I've been known to be too trusting. Now a days its difficult to trust. Especially when people disrespect you. I've had that happen one too many times. It was all my fault. I let people walk over me. Even as I learn to express myself more, people walk over me. I give some people more power than they truly deserve.

I myself could never join a fraternity. It in fact relates to the point that I can't trust men in general. Too many men have hurt me so much that I can't trust them. Then why am I gay? I'm still attracted to men. I just don't trust men. Maybe one day I can love a man when I love myself, but that's another subject. Being around a sorority seems so cool though. Its totally different I guess since I have so many more (girl) friends than (guy) friends. I've already blown any chances to be in a fraternity anyway since I came out. Not to many fraternities accept gays, at least what I see. A lot of men are still threatened by the fact that a man can be attracted to another man. Too bad for me. I'll live. Besides the fact that I don't like a lot of the guys (and I mean friendship standards not physical attractiveness) in those fraternities would be the reason not to join one anyways. Frats aren't about parties. It's about male bonding too. There are just some guys I don't think I'd be real into bonding with. Like I said. Too bad for me. I'll live.